Friday, November 13, 2009

A Glimpse of the Dark Side

On Monday, I felt a hard cord-like mass in my right breast.

On Tuesday, my ob/gyn felt it.  He was cautious and vague, which was not comforting.

On Wednesday, I had my first mammogram, my first breast sonogram.  The mammogram tech was coarse (Her:  "You say it's not really a mass.  Well that's the code your doctor used.  He said 'mass.'  What am I supposed to put, it's a line?" Me (one millisecond away from losing it): "Look, I'm not the doctor here. Why don't you come over and feel it yourself." ) The sonogram tech was nice.  I closed my eyes for the sono and tried to think about breathing.  She told me the doctor had left for the day.  Then she told me not to worry.

On Thursday, my ob/gyn told me everything looked normal.

On Friday, the breast surgeon (no thank you!) told me I have Mondor syndrom, which basically means a swollen vein that you can treat with tylenol if it's painful.

End of story.

It was a long, emotional week.  I am grateful for kindnesses.  I am grateful for my problems, because really, they could be so much worse.  I am grateful for my husband and for my kids and for my friends.  And, I am grateful for my body. I don't always treat it so well, I say mean things about it, but in the clutch, it came through.

Now, back to our show.

5 comments:

Tara Thayer said...

Oh, Jill. I'm sorry. I've had a similar scare these last few weeks, but mine is my heart.
I can imagine the explosion of thoughts and feelings you went through with this.
I also know-let's face it-what a pain in the ass it must have been just to get to the damn appointments (sorry, should i clean that up a bit?). We take care of everyone, but us? not so much.
A relieve to be told it's "normal", but I'm not sure we ever really go back from here.
Also-went to Rye Camera Shop. Pentax K1000's!
best wishes, tara

molly said...

I held my breath through reading the entire post. So so scary! What a fright this must have been. You must have gone through every possible scenario. Thank God it is what it is. So so sorry, friend. Hold your little ones a bit closer this weekend. Thank God you're okay.

Amy said...

I'm exhaling now too. I would like to find the tech who treated you with such disrespect and give her (him?) a swift kick. I'm sorry that you've been through this but also impressed with your ability to find something bright to hold onto when it's all said and done. Next foot forward. Step. Walk. Move on. (Come for coffee and conversation.)

lisa said...

How scary. I think we all fear going through something like that...I'm glad you're okay.

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